Why do we accept less than we deserve or are worthy of?

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Last week, I had something happen to me which really put into question my own beliefs about self-care and self-worth / self-value. From the outside it might seem benign or not a big deal but for me personally it was an eye opener. Let me share with you what happened. 

Each week I have French conversations with native French speakers because it’s a language I’ve been learning for a number of years now and as I’m no longer in France, I want to make sure that I maintain my level not to mention the fact that I really do enjoy speaking with people, especially in a language that I adore.

For about a year now I’ve been having conversations with a man based in France who I met on a language conversation exchange website. These conversations would last about an hour and we would talk about everything from the weather to politics and what was currently happening in the world.

I can’t remember exactly when it was that he happened to mention the subject of prostitutes. It wasn’t necessarily said in a derogatory way but it irked me. It seemed strange to be bringing up this subject especially as it’s not a topic I generally speak about. In addition, before diving into deeper topics or talking about things that are less mainstream, it’s important for me to trust the person which was something that hadn’t yet developed with this conversation partner.

It was noted in my mind but I left it as I considered it a once off. Then in another conversation someway down the track, he happened to mention the word rape. Again, he had said it on an offhand basis and used it as one of his examples to explain the meaning of a word. Knowing friends and close people who have been affected by abuse, I was really unhappy about this. Furthermore, it wasn’t necessary to use this word. I told him that I didn’t want to talk about this subject nor have it mentioned by him.

He was a bit taken aback but said he understood and said that he wouldn’t do that in the future. At this point I probably should have just stopped these conversations. Who mentions these types of topics when they don’t really know someone? I had other French male conversation partners who didn’t exhibit this type of behaviour at all.

However, I kept going. I didn’t listen to that voice inside that was telling me that I felt uncomfortable. I was trying to be the ‘good girl’ and not cause upset because at the end of the day what had he really done? He had said two words that I wasn’t happy with. He was a foreigner and didn’t understand the anglophone culture. Was that really enough to stop these conversations where I was learning and achieving my goal of improving my language skills? Basically I made excuses for him rather than really listen to myself, my discomfort.

So our conversations continued and most of the time it was interesting enough and I learnt new things. On the other hand, I didn’t necessarily look forward to them and was always alert to the possibility that he was going to talk about something else that wasn’t ok.

And then last week, he happily told me that one of his conversation partners in America had sent him a translated page from French to English which he found really helpful in learning new words. When I discovered that it was about a man and his experience with a prostitute in Paris (and especially when I saw the translated page and the terminology), I completely lost it.

 

Why we accept less than we deserve…

For so many reasons, I was furious and angry. Firstly, that he would think I would be interested in this especially when I had clearly told him that I wasn’t interested in these topics. Secondly, that he didn’t seem to understand that I had set my boundaries and he had overstepped them. Thirdly I was angry with myself for not listening to my needs and for accepting behaviour that was unacceptable to me. That I had ignored that inner voice telling me that I didn’t feel safe and that this wasn’t ok.

It made me think how often we accept in life less than we are worthy of and certainly less than we deserve. It’s also the fact that we generally accept this in situations that seem unimportant. We say to ourselves ‘oh but it’s not a big deal’ when actually it is. Anytime we accept or participate in something that we don’t want to, we send a message to ourselves that we aren’t enough, that we’re not worthy.

The funny thing is, with major things it’s a lot easier to say no. We’re clear on the matter and we can put our foot down. However, it’s the small things, the times when we’re not so clear that really impact us. And often times it’s because we don’t want to change the status quo, to upset someone or create conflict.

This incident really taught me a lot, certainly a lot more than I had anticipated. It’s made me more aware of how much more learning there is to do and how important it is to be more aware of the times when I accept less than I really want to; when I may feel it in my body or somewhere in my consciousness but ignore that inner voice anyway.

It’s not about beating ourselves up when these moments happen but rather noting them as a signpost of the changes that we need to make, to be more loving and kinder to ourselves. To listen to that inner voice / our intuition that tells us when something isn’t right and to be brave enough to make a stand. That we don’t need to be that ‘good’ person anymore.

 

Some actions

To support you on your own journey, here are some tips that I suggest:

  • Take note of situations where you feel uncomfortable. Is there a voice telling you that something isn’t quite right? Is there discomfort in your body? Get familiar with these signals that are telling you when something is not ok;
  • Listen to your inner voice. We often try to brush away that voice especially when we know that it’s bringing up something that may cause us challenges in the future such as a difficult conversation, possible conflict etc. However, the more that we listen and get clear on what it is telling us, the more that we align with ourselves and our true power
  • Ask yourself what change you need to make to rectify the situation. What do you need to say no to? What boundaries do you need to set? Put these in place as they will help you going forwards. You will find that as you get clear and comfortable with what is ok for you, the easier it will be to deal with these types of situations.
  • Be easy on and kind to yourself. I was angry with myself for not listening to my instincts and accepting less than ok behaviour. However, it was also a big lesson for me and I’m grateful that this was brought to my attention. And the fact is we’re all on a learning journey. It won’t always be easy and smooth sailing so be kind to yourself on the path.

 

I hope that by writing this post, it helps you to consider your own life and situations where you may accept less than you deserve or are worthy of. Please know that you are more valuable than you might ever imagine.

 

If there’s anything that I can do to help or you would like to book in a free discovery call or session, please send me a message. I would love to hear from you.

You might also find this post interesting: Let Love Guide You

 

 

Julie Lee
As a holistic coach, I facilitate the process of helping people remember who they are and the gifts that they bring to the world. My goal is to bring an awareness and understanding of your core issues so that you can come back into alignment with your true and amazing self, and live a life that truly resonates with you and brings you joy and fulfillment.

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